Six months of planning! Growing out my hair, longer than it’s been in 25 years. Finding a local photographer for a photo shoot so I would have new pictures to show you on Facebook and on my website. Choosing the perfect days… the perfect weather… for perfect outdoor pictures…. The perfect yet vulnerable divinely feminine me!

I say vulnerable as I mused How many more times will I do photo shoots in this career and lifetime? Can they photoshop some of the sun damage on my arms and legs? Oh yeah, just wear long sleeves even if it is 100 degrees in the sun (duh). Self-doubt is common, I know, whether young and lacking in confidence or aging and not wanting certain things to show up in the photos! I caught myself in every trap that I help women avoid – always aware of walking my talk.

The alarm on my iPhone softly beams me up at 5:00 a.m. with the hair dryer shaping my long tresses… while I carefully apply a natural look in the oval mirror as dawn creeps in the window behind my dressing table offering warm morning light. Oh, the taste of my Maui coffee while I watch my sweetheart purr softly under the light covers in the pink dawn. I feel like a leading lady on the set getting ready for the director and cameraman to arrive…. all eyes on me, Queen for a Day!

I dress and grab a few extra tops for the morning shoot, following the photographer in my car as his truck winds up through the Sierras on its way to a meadow in Hope Valley (how appropriate the name) where we will carry and schlep everything to a variety of yummy spots near rushing streams of fresh snow melt. He has multiple pieces of equipment hanging from his strong shoulders while I gracefully pack in my beauty bag filled with the accouterments of the feminine plus water and snacks.

The now-hot sun lights up my inner glow. The nascent green grasses blow softly in the high mountain air. By now I couldn’t care less how my hair looks or what I’m wearing… I just know I am in God’s country where the Goddess feeds my soul. Camera… where? Pose… how? I just want to cry it’s so beautiful, and after many blinks of tearing eyes, the morning progresses with click after click of the camera and the Goddess dancing together in the high mountain meadow.

It took me about 3 days to come down from that leading role! Remembering that my teaching and my healing work are the nuts and bolts of my career, I can now step up to embrace the many testimonials of me and my work… the very core of my assignment as the founder of Divine Feminine Awakening for women and couples who are drawn to deeper love and pleasure.

An aside: I made sure I was photographed without a smile, compassionately listening to his girlfriend tell me her childhood story of violation and abuse, as that is my true nature. I listen to you with the same heart full of caring because I know your story is your doorway to freedom.

See you soon… let’s talk,

Big Love, Caroline

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Queen for a Day

by Caroline Muir

Click… click… click-click-click… the high speed Nikon seemed to have a mind of its own. The woman behind the power has her own power… and a pretty big mind of her own!Wine and smile crop

“Time for new photos,” says I. What to wear? How’s my hair? You don’t know who I am in my new decade, the 8th one when you get past 70. “Wendy,” I request, “capture me in my ecstasy… as I am. Blow my mind right off… surprise the me who tries to stay in control… shove me outside my limits and dare me to let go for the camera. No posed studio portraits, please.”

And so we did… in San Francisco, Golden Gate Park, The DeYoung Museum, the Botanical Gardens… a perfect day. As if I were carried by rickshaw through the gardens of Heaven, the photographer and our make-up artiste escorted me into the unknown. I surrendered… fully… and that is why it worked… in a very orgasmic and organic sort of way.

Glammie hands on legs cropI wish I could do this more often. My confrontation with my aging vanished with each “click” of the Nikon. Believing that I was being seen by the “Beholder” and not by the lame and shallow critic in me was a healing of the highest magnitude. WOMAN (and I am one) spends way too much time confined within the walls of self-doubt. My career as an author and an educator of the Tantric Arts has opened the door of that room and invited me to soar. And that includes my willingness to surrender to the huge power that is WOMAN… in her sexual/sensual in-to-me-see for the world to witness.

White hands on heart crop resizeWhen one of my dearest girlfriends suggested doing this photo-shoot herself to capture her unique ‘brand’ as a psychotherapist, the aperture in me clicked “Yes”!  I treasure how women are my guides into bigger and bigger places within myself, just as I treasure how the men in my life have urged me over and over into bigger adventure, something I have always craved. Show me! is the mantra for people from Missouri where I grew up.

I have been playing out Queen for a Day all of my life. Now my passion and purpose is Embody Your Ecstasy® as the Divine Feminine Awakens through my offerings. Join me!

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All my love… always, Queen for a Day