My thoughts, as I rose the day before the Solar Eclipse of 2017, were filled with images of opening to Divine Light and releasing our (yours and mine) rage and grief that we’ve carried as women for too long. I chose to consciously release into Mother Earth in order to compost what I have taken in from women during the 30 years I have been involved with the Awakening Feminine. And into me, your Queen, I invited the transmissions from Yoniversal/Universal Love.

Tantra Yoga evolved for me into the Divine Feminine and Her inevitable awakening on this plane. I actively seek alignment with the rewiring that is always at work within my heart and soul.

An eclipse is a reflection of what is possible and how we are being asked to participate. To be a Queen who takes her throne on the seat of the Heart of Love is a lofty ideal. The Bodhisattva teachings bring heaven to earth. Not a bad assignment for a girl from the prairies of Kansas now residing in the land of She… Wild and Free!

I love this piece from Mystic Mamma:

TOTAL SOLAR ECLIPSE | NEW MOON in LEO rises as the Queen within takes her throne on the seat of the Heart of Love. 

Divine Feminine energy comes through the veil to awaken humanity to its true power in love.

A new way is calling as the outmoded, short-sighted, repressive ways of the Patriarchy are no longer tolerable or permissible. We the people awaken and new leaders step forth.

Together, we rise in consciousness for an inclusive humanity. Together, we cast away the illusion of separatism and step forth to heal the divides within ourselves, our partnerships, and our communities.

Each of us has the power to shift and realign with the heart as we let go, forgive, ask for forgiveness, and move through our collective grief to our seat of personal power within the heart of love

And so, my earthly and astrological friend, I ask you to receive your download at this time as it relates to your own very personal divine assignment. Receiving a download feels much like being struck by lightning, but in a positive way, not a way that would fry you to bits! It is a Birth process into a new form of leadership led entirely by the Heart of Love.

I wish to give thanks to Lauren Jubelier and Amrita Grace for this Gift of insight. The Shamanic path, whether it be Healing, Breathwork, or Astrology, is not for the faint of heart, but for the warriors and leaders of the coming Age of Truth.

Are you In? Tell me how the Great American Solar Eclipse affected you in the comments below!

Love, Your Queen of Hearts during a period of Cosmic Initiation

Six months of planning! Growing out my hair, longer than it’s been in 25 years. Finding a local photographer for a photo shoot so I would have new pictures to show you on Facebook and on my website. Choosing the perfect days… the perfect weather… for perfect outdoor pictures…. The perfect yet vulnerable divinely feminine me!

I say vulnerable as I mused How many more times will I do photo shoots in this career and lifetime? Can they photoshop some of the sun damage on my arms and legs? Oh yeah, just wear long sleeves even if it is 100 degrees in the sun (duh). Self-doubt is common, I know, whether young and lacking in confidence or aging and not wanting certain things to show up in the photos! I caught myself in every trap that I help women avoid – always aware of walking my talk.

The alarm on my iPhone softly beams me up at 5:00 a.m. with the hair dryer shaping my long tresses… while I carefully apply a natural look in the oval mirror as dawn creeps in the window behind my dressing table offering warm morning light. Oh, the taste of my Maui coffee while I watch my sweetheart purr softly under the light covers in the pink dawn. I feel like a leading lady on the set getting ready for the director and cameraman to arrive…. all eyes on me, Queen for a Day!

I dress and grab a few extra tops for the morning shoot, following the photographer in my car as his truck winds up through the Sierras on its way to a meadow in Hope Valley (how appropriate the name) where we will carry and schlep everything to a variety of yummy spots near rushing streams of fresh snow melt. He has multiple pieces of equipment hanging from his strong shoulders while I gracefully pack in my beauty bag filled with the accouterments of the feminine plus water and snacks.

The now-hot sun lights up my inner glow. The nascent green grasses blow softly in the high mountain air. By now I couldn’t care less how my hair looks or what I’m wearing… I just know I am in God’s country where the Goddess feeds my soul. Camera… where? Pose… how? I just want to cry it’s so beautiful, and after many blinks of tearing eyes, the morning progresses with click after click of the camera and the Goddess dancing together in the high mountain meadow.

It took me about 3 days to come down from that leading role! Remembering that my teaching and my healing work are the nuts and bolts of my career, I can now step up to embrace the many testimonials of me and my work… the very core of my assignment as the founder of Divine Feminine Awakening for women and couples who are drawn to deeper love and pleasure.

An aside: I made sure I was photographed without a smile, compassionately listening to his girlfriend tell me her childhood story of violation and abuse, as that is my true nature. I listen to you with the same heart full of caring because I know your story is your doorway to freedom.

See you soon… let’s talk,

Big Love, Caroline

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Take your relationship (or your divinely feminine self) to the next level – 3 days with me in a private immersion!

$500 off when you book by July 15th and schedule in 2017. Please fill out a Discovery Session Application and we will discuss investment and other details by phone or Skype.

 

“According to the tantric texts, women’s enlightenment is facilitated by the electric charge of her orgasmic nature. Through sexual sharing a woman activates a powerful sexual/spiritual energy, her Shakti, which then releases itself into her physical body and into her psyche, creating the atmosphere for her awakening and spiritual enlightenment.”

“Tantra recognizes spirituality as a kind of rearrangement of the same energy as sexuality, so when a woman increases her sexual power she adds, on an almost cellular level, to the strength of her spiritual aspect as well.”

From Tantra, The Art of Conscious Loving

I am inspired to write to the men… to your man… perhaps to all men.

I need you, men, to know how many parts of you turn a woman on… way before she actually is entered by your Wand of Passion… your Wand of Light… your Wand of God… and for some… your great big beautiful Cock.

Of course, not all women are alike, but most women are alike in that we love anticipation. We love to feel our desire emanating from every cell of our being. But we seldom get that, because entry/thrusting/intercourse and climax are over so quickly. Unless, of course, you have all day Saturday, the kids are away, and you have enough energy to be sexually and creatively active for many hours. Did you know that the word climax means “Stairway to Heaven”? Too often we skip the steps in order to reach the top, but both lovers often do not reach the top due to extreme differences in arousal timing and preferences.

What turns me on is the seed planted in my brain that something special is about to happen. I will notice the scent of my man, a word or words that get my mind thinking about pleasure and intimacy, anticipating a “best ever” orgasmic experience that is leisurely and intensely focused on ME….. me me me me me me… until I can’t stand it and I need to focus on you you you you…. (and I will add here the same anticipation works when I know I am going to have a self-pleasuring date with myself).

The subtleties of touch, of kissing, of eyes locked together in passionate intimacy… the warmth of skin and the movements of bodies dancing in erotic rhythm. If every man and every woman reading this would write (or speak and record) his and her perfect sexual experience, how would that look or sound? How might we teach one another so that no one ever has to spend time in a relationship where he or she is unfulfilled? Many are at a loss for words when it comes to speaking and describing these sensual intimacies.

Would you please write a paragraph or two or three, in the privacy of your world? Send them to me without your names if you wish, and let’s see if we can create such a weaving of our innermost visions that they would manifest outwardly.

Thank you! I love you! I can’t wait to hear from you!

Big Love, Caroline

Taking it Even Deeper

Are you breathing as you read this? I’m not talking about automated, unconscious breathing that you don’t even think about… can you find your breath beyond the shallow in and out that keeps you alive? Do you grow impatient with yet another reminder to Breathe Deeply, slowly, and with a focus on filling your lungs, holding for a moment, and then exhaling in slow motion before you take your next breath? What does this have to do with the divine or the feminine or orgasmic sex or whatever you are into? Hmmmmm… I wonder!

It’s as though we must re-take kindergarten over and over again, but this time it’s adult kindergarten. Our stress levels and to-do lists are over the top, so who has time to remember this breathing stuff? The power of your conscious breath can slow your thinking and calm the wild beast of your mind in a very short time!

This is very complimentary to the Breathwork Amrita wrote about in the last blog and the power unleashed via the breath when guided intelligently and compassionately… as you will experience in our Costa Rica retreat.

We are not creatures who take well to the idea of clearing our thoughts or “not thinking” because it seems impossible to do. The mind chatters on no matter what technique you apply. Some call this “learning to meditate,” but as a great thinker once said to me, “Why would I want to quiet my mind when there are so many great ideas in there to think about?”

I was speechless! He actually had a point. Something as basic and simple as mastery over the mind or the breath leaves most humans weak in the knees. And yet I write this blog as a Great Reminder… as loss of Power relates to going unconscious in your daily breath… not your daily bread… your daily BREATH.

The Divine Feminine work of sexual healing and awakening is dependent on teaching clients and students to breathe deeply – letting go of big sounds on the exhale. Breathing modalities such as Holotropic Breathwork and Shamanic Breathwork® use the power contained within the breath to assist the breather in releasing and letting go. Doesn’t it make sense that bigger pleasure and bigger orgasms can be invited with deeper breathing, faster breathing, louder breathing, controlled breathing, guided breathing, and breathing that releases energy?

For a full return of your Power, darling, begin now to access your deeper breathing into the full capacity of your lungs. You can skip kindergarten and move onto the playground sooner! I really have to work hard with clients to get them to breathe more deeply… it’s just so ingrained to contract and keep our breath shallow.

Next is another nearly impossible request… that of making sounds. So, if you have a mind to practice your Daily Breath, do so as an orgasmic step toward more vitality and peace of mind; and I will mention that more pleasure will join more Power in everything you think and do. Share a nostril-to-nostril kiss of breath with your lover and see where that takes you………..

It may take you to Costa Rica come play with us in the Sacred Feminine Mystery School’s Sacred Sexual Awakening & Healing Retreat for Women November 4-11, where we will inhale the scent of the sacred as well as the tropical… where we will awaken nerve endings in all of our sacred spaces… in all of our openings into our bodies, so that we breathe through our genitals as well as through our nostrils!

Sound like fun? I promise! Join Caroline and Amrita in sharing what we do best and love most!

With a tickle as I breathe my love to you, Caroline

My View from the Top

Panama momentI have always loved the view from the top. As a child in Kansas, it meant the top of the big old apple tree in our backyard. In New York City during my 20’s, it meant the view from the top of the Empire State Building. In my 30’s, it was the view from the top of the Rocky Mountains in Colorado… in my 40’s and 50’s in Maui, the view of Forever as I gazed out to the never-ending Pacific Ocean of horizon and sky.

….and on and on until this became essential to my view of the world and of my life.

At the moment my view is from the top of Trump Ocean Tower in Panama City, Panama. Please don’t confuse this as my choice for our next President… the guy does build nice buildings, i.e. the one on Fifth Avenue in NYC and this 70-story hotel in the Republic of Panama overlooking Panama Bay and the Panama Canal. The 66th floor outdoor café is thrilling (especially when the lovely tropical rain falls)!

What does this have to do with the Divine Feminine and the Awakening of the Goddess… well, many things! I love to watch women… and I love to watch men watching women. It is a privilege and a study much like viewing fine art in the museums of the world. It teaches me so much about the masculine/feminine dance of awe-inspiring desire, sex appeal, and the longing to merge. I see the insatiable curiosity to touch, to reach for the scent of another, to capture a gaze… and yet there is the steady protection to withhold, to look down, to walk the other way.

Here, were I am one in a million with eyes as blue as the sky, I love to capture those gazes. They see me as a creature from another planet… a “gringo” from another land. I feel the energy to connect. I return that. And the spark is complete… I feel aroused by this ‘salsa’ energy. It’s alive as the Shakti of the Yoniverse, converging with the Universe at all times.

Panama_CityMy skin is soft as a ripe Mango. I feel reborn. It’s more than a vacation. This is a vacation with a purpose… to apply and acquire a Residency Visa from the Panamanian Government… to feel firsthand the air, the people, the sky, and the water… absorbing the elements of jungle and concrete as they meet in harmony with advancing economic sky-scraping technological reality. “Poof”… said the magic dragon. What is next?

I will be home in Nevada for another 11 months. I will move the Immersions for women and couples to a tropical hideaway once I find the perfect place for you to deepen into your own Mango skin! Stay tuned my dear ones… the magic dragon might find you next!

In the awesome spirit of adventure, Señora Caroleena

woman-mirror-natureI am witnessing women coming forward with unparalleled courage… to give birth to themselves.

At every age they are arriving at my doorstep, intent on claiming their feminine birthright… the ownership of their Shakti. I am honored to shepherd them toward their goal. Women are getting the message that their time is now. Honestly, I am humbled by their forthright intent to do whatever it takes in order to not miss out on what is theirs to claim.

Skyrocketing levels of empowerment, self-esteem, acceptance of who they truly are. And perhaps at this point I will include myself… in who we truly are! For with each experience of women’s courage, mine is reactivated, infused, and channeled toward the explosion of feminine power… feminine knowing…feminine grace.

I cannot truly claim to be their mentor, for a higher force than myself is sending them on the gorgeous path to the abundant temple where the great Goddess dwells. In our oneness with Her, we relax further into the feminine mystery where we float and ride the current rather than laboring to swim upstream.

My schedule is booked solid through mid-September, and I’m taking bookings for the Divinely Feminine Experience for women and The Deepening Process for couples for the fall and early winter now. What is this, exactly? Find out more here for women and here for couples.

Are you ready?


As I reflect back over the past three decades, I feel so much gratitude for the education and transformation I’ve had the privilege and opportunity to share with thousands of people. The value of spiritual sexual education in my own life has been profound… and I’ve witnessed a similar impact on so many others. To be where I am now — in my 70’s, settled in a happy relationship, immersed in my life’s work — is so amazing; living a life that leaves me feeling fulfilled, vibrant, and glowingly happy.

This inquiry has led me to wondering how I can leave a legacy of spiritual sexual education so that many more can enjoy it in the future. Since I’ve always been a live, in-person educator, I’ve had to explore new ways to create a Queen’s Legacy that can live on beyond me.

So, after more than a year of promoting other people’s wonderful summits and programs, I’ve decided to create my own online course! I’m passionate about helping single women over 50 see their beauty, feel their aliveness, and know themselves as empowered, captivating sexual beings.

Yes, my dears, it’s time. I’ll share more about the program as it develops… look for more information later this summer.

With great excitement, Caroline

sunset-142698_1280Some words suddenly become popular that have been dormant or seldom used in modern language. For reasons having to do with what is needed or lacking in the culture, a word to define that void rises to the surface and is re-birthed.  The word ‘immersion’ is now seen more frequently, perhaps because it suggests a state of being that we need more of.

 

This awareness led me to create my Private Three Day Immersions, also known as the The Deepening Process® (for couples) and the Divinely Feminine Experience (for women) … a private retreat for those who know it is time to dive in and bathe in the warm depths of more intimacy, passion, receiving and love.

 

To dip… to plunge… to submerge… these are synonyms for ‘immerse.’   When I consider what is lacking more and more as sustenance or nourishment in this fast computer age, I know the truth and necessity of offering an opportunity for people to deepen… to plunge… and to immerse themselves in the warm ocean of peace, quiet and rest. I am also aware that there are few if any people (or places) who are versed in giving touch, caretaking, listening and offering comfort to the sexual soul of another. Many issues are stored and unobserved in this deeply private and personal domain of human life.

 

I work with you for several hours a day, then leave you to your own quiet space to integrate and explore what you are discovering about yourself… your agendas or inner dialogue, your subconscious fantasies, or simply room to spread your own wings with nothing to do. In my private space I journey inward as well so that my time with you is uncluttered by my own work life. I take the opportunity to unplug along with you, therefore bringing you my clearest self.

 

We often need guidance to do this. We need to be witnessed and seen by someone skilled who can help us recognize what we cannot see or do alone. That’s why we go to yoga teachers, to meditation classes, to healers and teachers and therapists. We are not equipped to handle deep emotional issues alone. We need support and a safe space to dive under the surface and explore the depths of our emotional and sexual psyche. We also need to set aside time to play… and to learn more ways to play with our sexual energy… to enjoy our bodies while restoring them to greater health and vitality.

 

Sexual awakening and healing invites education and awareness for the receiver. Deep memory and emotions can emerge especially when there is connection to the delicate nature of the heart and its journey with love and sexuality. Seldom can the depth of these issues arise in one session. They can be activated, but until the receiver can trust the giver there will be layers of protection, fear and uncertainty.

 

I see the power of men coming with their partners to a Couple’s Immersion, open to learning the more subtle intricacies of female sexuality and emotion. It is uncharted territory for many wonderful men just as lusty passion is uncharted territory for many fantastic women. In an effort to heal the ‘battle of the sexes,’ Tantra is designed to weave our differences into One multi-faceted relationship of an exquisite nature.

 

Whether you are looking for techniques to bring more pleasure to a partner or simply need a renewal for your own, I look forward to welcoming you!

 

Please peruse the information pages to acquaint yourself with the possibilities:

 

The Divinely Feminine Experience for women

The Deepening Process® for couples

 

I can hardly wait to see you!

Warmest Love, Caroline 

Dear Precious Woman…

If you are truly excited about

♥   more fulfilling relationships…

♥   your full orgasmic potential…

♥   more love in your life…

♥   releasing the past that no longer serves you…

You deserve to have your dreams fulfilled.

Give yourself a 3-day private retreat in a divinely feminine Temple-like space in which you can fully merge with your own true nature… without the daily interruptions of life.

Develop a deeper sensual relationship with your own body from the private work with me and from the books and DVDs available in the Goddess Studio.

I will personally stock your kitchen with your favorite needs so that you don’t have to go out if you don’t want to… or you can visit the gorgeousness of Lake Tahoe… or take long walks in beautiful Carson Valley… or simply stay in your lounge wear and use my yoga studio upstairs.

Infuse your relationships
with greater intimacy and more pleasure
…once you have found the source of your own desires!

What lies within you right now… is increased vitality, libido, and intimacy.

Reclaim your powerful feminine aliveness. Reconnect with your female essence.

“Imagine a guided immersion into the Feminine Mystery, something most women have forgotten their right to experience.”

“The soul has an absolute and unforgiving need for regular excursions into enchantment.”

Thomas Moore – bestselling author of Care of the Soul

Your Sessions with me include hands-on work to unlock the mysteries held within the hidden chambers of your birth center… giving you an opportunity to birth yourself into your birthright of wholeness and a much deeper understanding of your orgasmic potential.

You can schedule your immersion during the week or over a long weekend, whatever is most convenient for you. The cancellation policy is gentle in case of unforeseen changes in your schedule. (see below)

What you’ll learn in your Divinely Feminine Experience

   ♥ Enough Tantric lovemaking skills to last a lifetime

   ♥ Embodiment of your Divine Feminine Presence

   ♥ How to enhance and release longer, deeper, easier orgasms

   ♥ How to harness orgasmic energy for manifestation

   ♥ How to pleasure yourself into more ecstasy using the power of sounds and touch

To deepen your experience even more, I’ll provide…

♥ Access to my private Yoga Studio

♥ A list of local restaurants and David Walley’s Hot Springs

♥ Directions to my favorite eateries and places to enjoy locally and in the Lake Tahoe area.

Additionally, go home with these valuable tools for your home practice!

Everything below plus some sweet Surprises!

DVDSecrets of Female Sexual Ecstasy featuring Charles and Caroline Muir

Signed copies of my booksTantra Goddess, A Memoir of Sexual Awakening and Tantra, The Art of Conscious Loving

Wand – Crystal Wand for home practice – awaken your Sacred Spot (G-Spot)

Lubricant – 8 oz bottle of personal Lubricant

Empty relationships and sexless marriages become a thing of the past when you take this vitally important time out –  just for you!

My session was an incredible breakthrough, an awakening, a revealing of myself in a very intimate and non threatening space. So safe and comfortable and I’m so grateful. The real gift for me was knowing that I always have the power to find myself, on a very physical level, I am always here. All the stuff EVERY woman should know!

Samantha (Russia) Age 33

Before my immersion experience with Caroline, I only understood the Divine Feminine in an intellectual way, the way one understands things through reading and discussing. After, I embraced the Divine Feminine in a holistic and energetic way that is far more authentic and meaningful.

MA

Caroline is the Holy Mother of Love. She is the Mother you wish you had had to teach you and guide you to connect with your own inner strength and respect around your sexuality and healthy well-being at every stage of your life. She helps you erase any past trauma you may be carrying and replace it with peace and confidence to move toward pleasure and satisfaction and faith.

MS, Spiritual Intuitive, Palm Desert, CA

Caroline Muir is a radiant example of ‘being alive with pleasure.’ I consider her an integral part of my journey of awakening into my ecstatic feminine.

Catherine Oxenberg, Malibu, CA

My work with Caroline has changed me forever… in such a profound, touching and multi-dimensional way. 3 years later, I feel the work with Caroline has reached a new plateau within myself… where I honour myself as a woman; where I see my relationships in a new light; where I feel full, alive, energetic and loved by myself and the world. Caroline’s work is what has touched me the most and stayed with me in the most vibrant way. If I were to choose one thing out of 100 in terms if personal growth, I would choose working with Caroline.

Gitta S. Mother, Movement Therapist, Lover of Life – Sydney, Australia (and SF)

I am so grateful to you, Caroline, because I have learned two very important things while working with you during our Immersion: How to receive! And also how to connect more deeply and authentically with my husband, who is very immersed in his own work and himself, to the point where I have separated myself from him. I love him dearly. I needed to see how to be more patient and kind with my beloved even though it is still challenging. I am a happier woman when I do not look to him for affirmation and/or approval. I know he loves me as deeply as he can. Thank you!

Sandra Deakin ~ Belgium, thehomeofjoy.com

I’ve been engaged with Tantra for 40 years. Caroline Muir is a tantric master of the highest order. The most remarkable of all my teachers on this path, she is the embodiment of Divine Feminine wisdom, grace, teaching, transmission, gentleness, safety and experience I have ever encountered. If you do nothing else in your life, you must come and be with her in her presence.

Sami ~ Samadhi Longo-Disse, M.Div., CSC, Ph.D. samadhiresearch.com

A limited number of private immersions will be available near South Lake Tahoe, Nevada, scheduled around my travel and teaching schedule…. if you are interested, please apply for a Discovery Session with me to explore whether this is a good fit along with the cost and details.Gentle and simple Cancellation Policy: One half of your deposit is refundable if you cancel. All of your deposit can be applied to a future date within one year.

If you know this is exactly what you need to align your life with your vision, don’t hesitate! Apply for a Discovery Session today.

I can’t wait to welcome you!

Big Love,
Caroline

About Your Hostess

Caroline co-authored the best-selling book, Tantra, The Art of Conscious Loving and co-led the very popular Beginner/Intermediate and Advanced Tantra Trainings since 1989 across the U.S., Hawaii, Bali and Mexico. Caroline has taught both Divine Feminine for Women at Esalen Institute in Big Sur, Ca. as well as Kripalu Center for Yoga and Health in Stockbridge, MA.

Caroline’s autobiography, Tantra Goddess, A Memoir of Sexual Awakening, was published by Monkfish Books in 2011 and it continues to draw women and couples interested in her private mentoring and coaching.

Caroline founded the Divine Feminine Institute in 2004, offering trainings in the Nurturing Practice of AH, a sexual healing and awakening approach that she believes is the missing piece in human sexuality. With renewed passion, Caroline devotes her time to the Divine Feminine Awakening as a global calling for the advancement of female sexual health and education.

Caroline teaches and inspires you to unfold as Lovers and Masters of intimacy as well the Art of Sexual Loving, influenced by her feminine wisdom understanding.  Tantra is an ancient Hindu subject, but we are neither ancient nor Hindu. This information has been sculpted for the Western woman and man desiring to learn how to practice sexual love as an art form.

By Caroline Muir

India TantraIncense fills the air in my home as I await the new clients coming in an hour. The curt and brief email indicated ‘my husband and me’ would like to see you. Arrangements were made and the time was set for Saturday morning.

I gazed at two faces I had never seen, but whose names I had become familiar with through emails and the phone calls that Shanti and I exchanged, discussing the details of their visit. She has been with her husband (the marriage arranged in India) for 22 years, and their two teen-age children asked curiously, “Where are you going, Mama?”

The faces gazing at me as I opened the front door were classic to the Indian culture… big almond eyes, beautiful smiles, small stature, well dressed, eager and open. I welcomed them into my office, where we sat on fuchsia silk cushions to discuss the upcoming session, bowing easily in Namaste, as is their custom (and mine also, by the way).

Shanti expressed in her lovely, accented voice that she has always ‘known’ about Tantra Yoga, but never felt she had found the right teacher … not in her native India, nor in the U.S. where they had lived for thirty years.

“I have combed the internet looking for Tantra teachers, but when I Googled and found Divine Feminine Awakening, Caroline, I knew immediately that my teacher would be you.” It always amazes me how women, especially, know from their feeling-place what or who is next. Her search was for an initiation into and with Divine Mother, and I was close enough to her vision that she chose me to bring this union to her.

Shanti has never been with anyone except for her family and her husband, a gentle, intelligent and lovely man. He stood close by her as I left the room for her to undress and put on one of my silk ceremonial robes.  When I returned she was under the sheets on my warm and cozy massage table. All I could see were huge deep eyes, full beautiful lips, and a head flowing with dark silky hair. Her eyes looked up at me in anticipation of this … her long-awaited Initiation into the sisterhood of the divine feminine.

I gazed long and easily with Shanti, my hands softly resting on her heart and belly through the covers that protected her privacy. I moved my upper hand to her brow center, and guided her into her breath, her chakra centers, the sounds of OM and AH, all familiar to her from the Indian culture. Her beloved stood respectfully apart, yet near.  Instinct told me to explain that I would now join her on the table and drape her legs over my lap so that my hands could contact her pubic mound and her heart. She trembled slightly, though her eyes told me she was ready to step through her fear and into the enlightened space of having arrived at her desired destination.

In the fullness of time and with her permission, I slowly entered her and rested my fingers softly onto her sacred spot. Almost immediately she went into process as her lovely face drew up into the pre-tears that would soon fall from her eyes. Many moments passed as she recalled, felt, and accessed what she had longed for her whole life. She wailed “my sisters in India all need this so badly … they are all subservient and afraid to stand tall in their power.”

“Blessings to you Shanti and to all of your sisters in India. The old ways are dying and the power of your passion is here to stay!” I exclaimed.  She nodded but could not speak, and through our gaze I felt the transmission to all women who have been kept small because their culture said “This is how it is!”

I gazed over at her beloved, and his teary eyes gazed back at me as he nodded his support for his wife. We later moved back to sit again on our silk cushions and joined hands. Silence is natural to those who meditate and we lowered our eyes for a long period of integration.

As we bowed in Namaste, Shanti asked if they could stop by on Sunday before driving home so that “…you would please bless our children, Caroline.” “Of course, Shanti, that would be my pleasure”… and it surely was.

Reflecting on the session in the altered state that followed, I realized that the magic of this experience was that a blue-eyed Kansas girl was the messenger of the essence of Tantra Yoga to these beautiful Indian people, a gift to so many of us from their culture.

Om Shanti… Shanti… Shanti…

I welcome your comments below … how do you feel after reading this true story?