Pura Vida

A soft rain falls just an arm’s reach from my breakfast coffee amidst the jungle foliage surrounding the open air dining. I reflect on every gorgeous moment of our immersion into the essence of Nature known in Costa Rica as “Pura Vida.” I feel this healthy wholesomeness seep into my cells breath by breath in one of the world’s few “Blue Zones,” where people naturally live longer lives. Where my soon-to-be new home in Panama City oozes Salsa, sexy, and sublime… my neighbor to the northwest is famous for the Pure Life.

Coming Home 

It’s been five years since I’ve been involved in facilitating a weeklong retreat, and I feel like I’ve come HOME. I believe that every one of the 21 women who attended our first tropical Sacred Feminine Mystery School Retreat is abundantly delighted, surprised, and satisfied. They went home with way more than they expected. We loved Blue Spirit Retreat Center so much that we booked it for next year, November 24-December 1!

Revelation

The testimonials offered by the women who attended (now featured on our Maui retreat page) confirm the truth of how essential this kind of connection is to their lives. For me, it reconfirmed how important this gathering of the feminine is to the core values of the larger Feminine collective. I daresay it was even a revelation.

It was also a big revelation for Amrita Grace, my beloved co-founder and co-facilitator as well as my designated lineage holder and business manager. Like a bolt of lightning, she got potently recharged with her mission to bring this precious, unique body of work to the world in a coherent, cohesive way. (More about that soon)

Practical Expansion

Even the loftiest and most expansive ideas need the practical and organizational skills of a linear mind to ground them into the earth plane and translate them into understandable terms. This is why Amrita and I are such a stellar team! Where I am weak, she is strong. Where I have thirty years of education and experience in achieving bliss through the FUNdamentals of pleasure and play, Amrita puts these fundamentals into a cohesive set of teachings that allows the brain to engage (and then let go) in order to surrender into the Practice of AH (Awakening & Healing). From beginning to advanced practice, from sexual healing practice to sexual awakening practice, we proceed without agenda for the purpose of a sacred and divine blessing to this essence of feminine energy.

Mystery School Mysteries

So what really happened here during our first offering of the Sacred Feminine Mystery School week-long retreat, attended by women from all over the world? Together, as a circle, we created a container so sacred, so powerful, and so filled with integrity, that we were able to go on a well-supported journey into the depths of who we are as feminine beings. We surrendered into the tenderness of the sisterhood while we let go of the burdens of shame, resistance, anger, mistrust, and pain that we’ve carried for lifetimes, handed down through the generations of our foremothers, making space for the sweetness of bliss and pleasure that is our birthright.

Retire? Ha ha, the joke’s on me!

As the Founder of Divine Feminine Awakening and co-founder, with Amrita, of the Sacred Feminine Mystery School, I can now see where my “retirement” ideas are leading… into a new decade of work with Amrita as we weave a curriculum for our Mystery School that’s built on a foundation of the AH Practice and grounded in a new paradigm of feminine principles.

Additional delights

Shamanic Breathwork, offered by Amrita, now has a solid place in the curriculum. Living Blueprint Astrology is also woven in and is essential to the process. This feminine-centered body of work is offered by Lauren Jubelirer, a divinely informed Astrologer and Acupuncturist. Morning Yoga begins each day with a delight for our bodies, offered in such a grace-filled way for every level of participant by Rachel Fiske. Believe me, if Rachel could entice me onto the mat at 7:00 each morning and send me off the mat loving my body, mind, and spirit in preparation for the day, she has a true gift. I have attended and left many yoga classes over the years simply because the teachers do not offer the gentle approach I believe hatha yoga to be.

The Sacred Masculine

I will end this missive in praise of and appreciation to Apollo Grace, Amrita’s beloved husband, who offered AH sessions to the women as an optional service during the week. Their responses, one and all, were filled with gratitude for the Sacred Masculine presence Apollo offers just by being his sincere and loving self. This Feminine Mystery School knows the value of healthy masculine balance, and we proudly offer it where we can find it.

More, please!

We turn our attention now to our next retreat on Maui, April 21-28, 2018. Several of the women who came to Costa Rica signed up for Maui as the retreat week came to an end, knowing how important this work is and feeling the desire to experience more of it as they awaken long-asleep parts of themselves and open their arms to greet a brand new era of Awakening and Healing on the planet.

Home is where my heart is, and it’s good to be HOME!

In deepest joy, Caroline

P.S. We’ve added two new dates for Sacred Feminine Conversations, December 9th and January 6th. It’s a free global telecall with the sacred feminine sisterhood, hosted by me and Amrita. International phone numbers are available. More info here.

Sacred Insights

I quite regularly find myself speaking to women who are uncertain about the purpose and practice of Yoni Massage and Blessing as part of the Nurturing Practice of AH (Awakening and Healing). And yet, I see the demand for this uniquely feminine body of work rising every year.

We highlight the AH Practice as the transformational core of what we will be presenting during the Women’s Retreat in Costa Rica and the weekend in Chapel Hill. I’ve been leading groups of women in this ritual of ancient blessings since 1989.

Over these many years, the women who have attended and participated in the celebrations or rituals of Yoni Blessing have either known how important this blessing was and is to them or were at least willing to “land on the moon” and take the first step! Some of them signed up because they had seen this ritual in dreams. Some felt deeply that their yoni needed to receive “permission” from a Priestess to partake in sexual awakening and pleasure. Others could sense buried treasure within and wished for it to be revealed and released.

What I have witnessed during the sacred feminine ritual of touch to the hidden access to our feminine power could be filed as unbelievable or miraculous… the receiver is often quite surprised by what she remembers as the mysteries are opened after a long slumber. A memory of a past life or a scream of terror as the Inquisition is witnessed and felt all around her. She might remember something specific that she saw or felt during an abortion or during a sexual encounter that resulted in an unwanted pregnancy. She might feel the rejection or the abandonment of a beloved…. or she might surrender to the ecstatic energy within her as tears of gratitude flow. The true gift is contact with what blocks your pleasure and freedom to feel.

Trust issues with women, with mother, and with men often come to the surface. We teach the healing practice of presence, offering women infinite space to feel and release. What is held as separation between women is surprisingly transformed into pure intimacy. Many women ask “Why were we never shown this before?” or say things like “It makes so much logical sense that women would bless one another in this way!”

No one is ever required to participate or judged if they don’t. No one who isn’t ready is expected to have another women enter and bless her Sacred Space at all during our week-long retreat. It can sound very strange, threatening, or even weird from the point of view of reading about it on your computer, but you are invited to join and perhaps not know ahead of time if you are going to join in the ritual or not. I have held women who were too afraid to partake in the ceremony and asked them to reverently gaze at the scene before them… feeling all and fearing nothing. Your safety is assured.

There are often aftershocks, much like what happens post-earthquake when the land trembles with the shifts of the earth’s plates. When women dare to show up for one another as midwives of the sacred, our earth shifts. We are never quite the same again (in a “thank goodness” kind of way) for we emerge beyond the invisible fear of one another that we didn’t know we carried, a burden that separates. I have witnessed mothers and daughters partaking in the Goddess Blessing Ritual, only to “find” one another once and for all.

There are many stories in “the naked city.” When we dare to take off our masks and costumes and truly let down our hair, many secrets unfold. It is with great conviction that Amrita and I walk with you into the great mystery… the Sacred Sexual Awakening & Healing Retreat for Women in Costa Rica, Nov. 4-11. The $500 early-bird discount expires May 1st!

Oh, and be sure to join us for Sacred Feminine Conversations April 15. We will be exploring the concept of the Maga, the archetype between Mother and Crone. You can register here.

In Service to All,
Caroline

 

Taking it Even Deeper

Are you breathing as you read this? I’m not talking about automated, unconscious breathing that you don’t even think about… can you find your breath beyond the shallow in and out that keeps you alive? Do you grow impatient with yet another reminder to Breathe Deeply, slowly, and with a focus on filling your lungs, holding for a moment, and then exhaling in slow motion before you take your next breath? What does this have to do with the divine or the feminine or orgasmic sex or whatever you are into? Hmmmmm… I wonder!

It’s as though we must re-take kindergarten over and over again, but this time it’s adult kindergarten. Our stress levels and to-do lists are over the top, so who has time to remember this breathing stuff? The power of your conscious breath can slow your thinking and calm the wild beast of your mind in a very short time!

This is very complimentary to the Breathwork Amrita wrote about in the last blog and the power unleashed via the breath when guided intelligently and compassionately… as you will experience in our Costa Rica retreat.

We are not creatures who take well to the idea of clearing our thoughts or “not thinking” because it seems impossible to do. The mind chatters on no matter what technique you apply. Some call this “learning to meditate,” but as a great thinker once said to me, “Why would I want to quiet my mind when there are so many great ideas in there to think about?”

I was speechless! He actually had a point. Something as basic and simple as mastery over the mind or the breath leaves most humans weak in the knees. And yet I write this blog as a Great Reminder… as loss of Power relates to going unconscious in your daily breath… not your daily bread… your daily BREATH.

The Divine Feminine work of sexual healing and awakening is dependent on teaching clients and students to breathe deeply – letting go of big sounds on the exhale. Breathing modalities such as Holotropic Breathwork and Shamanic Breathwork® use the power contained within the breath to assist the breather in releasing and letting go. Doesn’t it make sense that bigger pleasure and bigger orgasms can be invited with deeper breathing, faster breathing, louder breathing, controlled breathing, guided breathing, and breathing that releases energy?

For a full return of your Power, darling, begin now to access your deeper breathing into the full capacity of your lungs. You can skip kindergarten and move onto the playground sooner! I really have to work hard with clients to get them to breathe more deeply… it’s just so ingrained to contract and keep our breath shallow.

Next is another nearly impossible request… that of making sounds. So, if you have a mind to practice your Daily Breath, do so as an orgasmic step toward more vitality and peace of mind; and I will mention that more pleasure will join more Power in everything you think and do. Share a nostril-to-nostril kiss of breath with your lover and see where that takes you………..

It may take you to Costa Rica come play with us in the Sacred Feminine Mystery School’s Sacred Sexual Awakening & Healing Retreat for Women November 4-11, where we will inhale the scent of the sacred as well as the tropical… where we will awaken nerve endings in all of our sacred spaces… in all of our openings into our bodies, so that we breathe through our genitals as well as through our nostrils!

Sound like fun? I promise! Join Caroline and Amrita in sharing what we do best and love most!

With a tickle as I breathe my love to you, Caroline

by Amrita Grace

If you’ve never experienced breathwork, you are in for a real treat! Breathwork is a powerful healing process that brings forth your own inner healer and has the capacity to release dysfunctional patterns and addictions as well as take you into states of pleasure, delight, and bliss. It’s a highly individual process and every journey is different. It’s a natural way to experience altered states of consciousness assisted by music, your breath, and your intention.

I had my first experience with breathwork in the early 2000’s. It was called Maitri Breathwork and was led by a woman named Anahata in the small mountain community of Murphys, CA. It was an 8-hour experience. I always did like to dive in deep! I found it very healing and loved the natural altered states I could get to. Getting up to go to the bathroom was like being on another planet!

I was exposed to Holotropic Breathwork a few times after that initial experience and found it to be a mixed bag. I loved the loud, evocative music and again, the realms of consciousness not normally available to me. But there was something not quite “complete” about it. I often did not feel grounded afterward.

Then, in 2008, I had the opportunity to experience Shamanic Breathwork®. It was in this magical space that I met my Beloved. I asked him to be my co-journeyer, my breathwork partner. In Shamanic Breathwork, I found a freedom of expression, a permission to explore that had not been available to me in previous breathwork sessions. Afterward, we were given art supplies to create a mandala of our inner experience, something that was new to me and that I found to be the missing piece.

Two years later, I was back in that same room, once again in a Shamanic Breathwork holding co-journeyer space for my Beloved. As he came out of his breathwork, in complete silence, he proposed to me. I responded with an enthusiastic but equally silent YES!

My most powerful Shamanic Breathwork experience took place on the Isle of Lewis in Scotland, which contains the Callanish Standing Stones (a complex of many stone circles). When I was first introduced to the stones, they felt like old friends. Curious about that, I took the question into my Shamanic Breathwork session. What was revealed was amazing!

As a breathed my way into an alternate reality, I was shown the standing stones with very light, almost transparent beings weaving through the tops of the stones. They seemed to live above ground, and I was one of them. They showed me that I was a queen in this realm and that some of them had chosen to embody as the stones. So yes, they were indeed old friends! Tears poured down my face as I recounted the experience to my Beloved (now my husband).

In late February, I had the opportunity to experience Shamanic Breathwork three times with the founder, Linda Star Wolf, facilitating. What was revealed this time was that I’ve come full circle on my healing path and now it’s time to hold this powerful space for others. I’m now certified as a Shamanic Breathwork Facilitator and I’ll be bringing this powerful work into the Costa Rica Sacred Sexual Awakening & Healing Retreat for women that I’ll be co-facilitating with Caroline.

Love & blessings, Amrita

As life unfolds, many of us leap from stepping-stone to stepping-stone… across the great abyss of the flowing waters of change. I am reminded of the teachers who launched a thousand moments in my life … the mentors of passion-filled experiences and people I have met over decades.

New York! The Big Apple! The experience of New York as a “state of mind.” Manhattan was my first beloved place from the age of 20 to 30 (prior to the rise of Trump Tower, by the way!). From the screeching of the subways to the teeming throngs on Fifth Avenue, rushing to catch my train near Grand Central, and helicopters taking off from the top of the Pan Am Building. My spirit would soar at the very passion with which people lived their lives. And mine was joined to theirs in a New York sort-of-way.

I weep victoriously as memory opens to allow me to relive the scent and sounds of the Ballet, the theaters of Broadway, the concert halls of my 20’s. I frequently remained in the City after work to attend a season of the American Ballet or the Alvin Ailey, often alone, but sometimes meeting my first husband for dinner and a play. Eventually, Pink Floyd at Carnegie Hall and the Rolling Stones at Madison Square Garden were signs of the changing times. Equal to these events were the many professional basketball games, hockey games, and New York Giants Football games at Yankee Stadium, as enthusiasm to live life fully drove my eager youth.

Much of this I recalled when writing my memoir, Tantra Goddess. But so many details were lost in the editing in order to get on with the story. Watching A Ballerina’s Tale this past week, a documentary about the historical success of Misty Copeland, principal dancer of the American Ballet Theater, opened up a deep passion in me. It is those lost passions or perhaps current ones that drive our creativity for living a chosen way.

I always knew I wanted to dance, to move, to soar and leap. I envied all singers and dancers on the stages of New York, but I did not envy their unbridled discipline. I also wanted the freedom to learn in the University called Life. In other words, I also needed to leave my legacy of unexplored art. That is what Tantra Yoga is to me… unexplored art. And the feminine is the Aphrodite of this art form.

Which brings me to the deeper point of this story. How many of those passions have fueled your life? In creating The Sacred Feminine Mystery School with Amrita Grace, we are igniting our shared passion for bringing women together in sacred ceremony in order to help them ignite their lost passions… clearing away anything that stands in the way. It’s time for women to rise together in inspired weavings of many colors.

We invite your participation in our free monthly global video conference, Sacred Feminine Conversations. You’ll have an opportunity to share your passion and truth in a circle of women. (Recordings will be made available to all registrants.) Our January 14 conversation already has 137 women registered! Our next date is February 11 with more to follow. 

Join us in Costa Rica November 4-11 for yoga, ceremony, Shamanic Breathwork®, and sacred sexual healing and awakening for women. Take advantage of the updated early-bird discounts now in place!  As a tribe of passionate truth-seekers, we will Rise, Soar, and More…

 

A Winter’s Tale, Caroline

Advances in Pleasure

There have been a number of times in my career as an author and an educator that I’ve shaken my natural curls in wonder, asking “what will they think of next?”.

I am a great believer in enhancement. Why shouldn’t we enhance ourselves? Women have been doing this for as long as we have lived. The endless hair appointments, manis and pedis, facials, and/or makeovers can fill a woman’s calendar… not all, but many! And all this in between work schedules, picking up the kids, grocery shopping, and some form of yoga, gym workouts, or simply a relaxing massage. We love beauty!

In a recent phone conversation with a doctor friend of mine, I was informed about the steady increase in vaginal rejuvenation. No, not the surgical kind, but the use of injectables such as Prolozone, PRP (Platelet Rich Plasma), and a procedure known as TheremiVa for women who have lost sensitivity in their G-spot, vagina, and clitoris.

I have recently been seeing my Naturapath for injections of Prolozone into a cranky arthritic knee, but I was taken completely surprise by the idea of these injections being offered in women’s health clinics across the country. My knee knows it would love to dance again, and the Prolozone (a homeopathic/oxygen technique) takes all of fifteen minutes at the office of a holistic M.D.

But in my Yoni? Now that was new beyond my imagination. However, hearing how these injections can and do give women a return to the orgasmic pleasure they had lost perked my interest and my need to know. And these fairly comfortable (I said “fairly”… everyone is different) procedures are offered from New York to Arizona to California and beyond. Check in with your local Naturapath or Med Spa!

Looking on the web I see warnings as well as inspiring articles about the use of oxygen or ozone therapy. While I am not recommending any of this, it’s my hope to inform you of what I hear and learn about.

Fortunately my vaginal and clitoral tissue are alive and well as I move through my 73rd year. But not every woman can say that. We are all so different. Our sexual partners may or may not have had the skills to keep our lady parts luscious. Surely women who have felt a deadening in their sexual responses would want to know all that may be possible for rejuvenation. But never forget your lovely hands and sensitive fingers for a daily dose of loving awakening! Daily practice squeezing your love muscles works magic.

If you would like to learn and practice your own natural rejuvenation, come join us for The Sacred Feminine Mystery School’s Sexual Healing and Awakening Retreat for women November 4-11, 2017, at Blue Spirit Costa Rica. We will deliver all the natural “cures,” and join in lively discussions about the alternatives. We will transmit Shakti energy to each other, which is an ancient rejuvenation “secret” women have known about for centuries.

Into the New Year with orgasmic tremblings… I remain your very own Tantra Goddess, Caroline