Taking it Even Deeper

Are you breathing as you read this? I’m not talking about automated, unconscious breathing that you don’t even think about… can you find your breath beyond the shallow in and out that keeps you alive? Do you grow impatient with yet another reminder to Breathe Deeply, slowly, and with a focus on filling your lungs, holding for a moment, and then exhaling in slow motion before you take your next breath? What does this have to do with the divine or the feminine or orgasmic sex or whatever you are into? Hmmmmm… I wonder!

It’s as though we must re-take kindergarten over and over again, but this time it’s adult kindergarten. Our stress levels and to-do lists are over the top, so who has time to remember this breathing stuff? The power of your conscious breath can slow your thinking and calm the wild beast of your mind in a very short time!

This is very complimentary to the Breathwork Amrita wrote about in the last blog and the power unleashed via the breath when guided intelligently and compassionately… as you will experience in our Costa Rica retreat.

We are not creatures who take well to the idea of clearing our thoughts or “not thinking” because it seems impossible to do. The mind chatters on no matter what technique you apply. Some call this “learning to meditate,” but as a great thinker once said to me, “Why would I want to quiet my mind when there are so many great ideas in there to think about?”

I was speechless! He actually had a point. Something as basic and simple as mastery over the mind or the breath leaves most humans weak in the knees. And yet I write this blog as a Great Reminder… as loss of Power relates to going unconscious in your daily breath… not your daily bread… your daily BREATH.

The Divine Feminine work of sexual healing and awakening is dependent on teaching clients and students to breathe deeply – letting go of big sounds on the exhale. Breathing modalities such as Holotropic Breathwork and Shamanic Breathwork® use the power contained within the breath to assist the breather in releasing and letting go. Doesn’t it make sense that bigger pleasure and bigger orgasms can be invited with deeper breathing, faster breathing, louder breathing, controlled breathing, guided breathing, and breathing that releases energy?

For a full return of your Power, darling, begin now to access your deeper breathing into the full capacity of your lungs. You can skip kindergarten and move onto the playground sooner! I really have to work hard with clients to get them to breathe more deeply… it’s just so ingrained to contract and keep our breath shallow.

Next is another nearly impossible request… that of making sounds. So, if you have a mind to practice your Daily Breath, do so as an orgasmic step toward more vitality and peace of mind; and I will mention that more pleasure will join more Power in everything you think and do. Share a nostril-to-nostril kiss of breath with your lover and see where that takes you………..

It may take you to Costa Rica come play with us in the Sacred Feminine Mystery School’s Sacred Sexual Awakening & Healing Retreat for Women November 4-11, where we will inhale the scent of the sacred as well as the tropical… where we will awaken nerve endings in all of our sacred spaces… in all of our openings into our bodies, so that we breathe through our genitals as well as through our nostrils!

Sound like fun? I promise! Join Caroline and Amrita in sharing what we do best and love most!

With a tickle as I breathe my love to you, Caroline

The Mother Wound

One of my dear friends recently went into the hospital to fulfill her doctor’s recommendation that she have a hysterectomy to remove her uterus. This recommendation was due to a pap smear cancer alarm that could affect the health or longevity of her uterus. She was devastated.

She came to me grieving deeply about this loss. She told me that her only daughter was in residence at one time in her womb and that her daughter is quite precious to her. I pondered this situation, noticing that my usual compassion was not up to par as I listened. Even though I contacted and blessed my friend internally, I was having a hard time raising my healing love focus to the point where I felt I was doing some good.

Segue to my early life….

I have never been pregnant nor ever delivered a child. My uterus (womb) was removed during my mid-twenties, along with both ovaries and my cervix. I didn’t know how to miss them as I had never met them in the first place.

I adopted my daughter nearly fifty years ago. I suppose you could say it hasn’t turned out well, as she chooses only a very distant relationship with me; whereas I continue to feel into a commitment to love her unconditionally and eternally. I so desire a close relationship with the only daughter I will ever know! And I realize that probably sounds a bit dramatic, as realistically I have thousands of daughters that I have bonded with through my work as an educator and practitioner of conscious loving and sexual healing. Nonetheless… I have a need to be very personal in this blog.

These are the confessions of a woman who didn’t know how to be a mother! And my Mother could barely figure it out, which no doubt led to my uncertainty into the world of mothering. Yet the longing to experience and be a mother never leaves the place inside that aches for the best-friendship possibility with this stranger I’ve called my darling daughter now for nearly fifty years!

Mothering comes naturally to me in my work. I am all female with some masculine characteristics thrown in. I love to nurture, care-take, and protect. I do that with the men in my life and I do it with girlfriends when they need that kind of attention. I do it with my clients, nurturing and attending to their needs while they are in my care. I do it pretty well for me also, mothering myself well when I feel the ache for a mother’s love. I have raised two cats and three puppies in my day… successfully I must say! And “Mama Queenie” is the nickname I was given during my travels in Bali years ago by all of the Balinese mammas who nourished me so deeply.

The Mother Wound is so pervasive in our culture. Is there a woman who doesn’t know the work that it takes to come into alignment and acceptance with their mother? The very fact that we form within our mother’s emptiness, also known as her source, is an invisible umbilical cord that haunts us for life. I seek answers to all of this. Please… what do you know? Share your story with me in the comments.

We are going to dive deeper into this discussion during our next free global video conference, Sacred Feminine Conversations on Feb 11th. Hope you can join us.

Big Love, Caroline

Who is Teaching Our Men?

You are my dear! You are the teacher for a man when you are his lover.

There is the story of a spiritual teacher who was offered a night of love by one of his students and he answered, “Thank you, but no. I don’t sleep with my students.” The Goddess’s answer as she looked warmly into his tentative eyes was “Oh, I don’t want to sleep with you. I want to AWAKEN with you!” This brought our brother to his knees in worship and surrender to her offer.

I share this story because you, Awakening Orgasmic Woman, truly are his Muse. Aphrodite is part of your feminine essence if only you dare to speak and show and tell… how and where to touch you. Whether he is touching you with his fingers, his eyes, his lips, his tongue, or his Wand of Pleasure, he needs your guidance… he needs your encouragement… and he needs your loving, enthusiastic heart.

Showing a lover exactly how and where and what you like is a great gift to give to him or her. There is endless information on the internet now, on YouTube, on many websites and in a thousand books and videos about how to pleasure a woman, or how to give good head… until the whole subject loses it sex appeal, so to speak. Yet there is a need to speak scientifically about female pleasure, as least for the scientifically-minded person.

Amrita came across a website recently that really rocks my boat in a good way… real women showing real techniques while naming them, defining them, and categorizing them in an effort to delineate and/or teach a lover or yourself. Primarily their efforts are in the pursuit of better and bigger clitoral orgasms… at least so far. This is only Season One. I happen to think this guide is going to be perfect for my highly scientific partner. Yippee! Let’s get started, Sweetie!

Check out OMG YES!

Love to hear your thoughts! As an educator, I am passionate about ways to inform and show things that are hard to find words for… i.e. “slower” or “a little to the left” might be easier for women to say than “more edging, please” or “love some layering, honey.”

Previewing touchable video to practice the strokes for a woman’s labia and clitoris is state of the art for modern technology. Is this how robots will learn the fine Art of Honoring the Yoni and the Lingam, one of my favorite subjects in Tantric Sex? Yes, darlings, Robots in your lifetime will provide immediate relief!

I sent my $29 in almost immediately, even though I know how to pleasure my own pearl-of-a-girl quite well, but I long for the words to express all her nuances, twists, and turns. I want the word masturbating to forever lose its appeal, replaced permanently with self-pleasuring. I long to hear the new vocabulary for pleasure become a thought-form in the minds of every human being. Evolution is here to stay!

Oh My God… YES, Caroline

As life unfolds, many of us leap from stepping-stone to stepping-stone… across the great abyss of the flowing waters of change. I am reminded of the teachers who launched a thousand moments in my life … the mentors of passion-filled experiences and people I have met over decades.

New York! The Big Apple! The experience of New York as a “state of mind.” Manhattan was my first beloved place from the age of 20 to 30 (prior to the rise of Trump Tower, by the way!). From the screeching of the subways to the teeming throngs on Fifth Avenue, rushing to catch my train near Grand Central, and helicopters taking off from the top of the Pan Am Building. My spirit would soar at the very passion with which people lived their lives. And mine was joined to theirs in a New York sort-of-way.

I weep victoriously as memory opens to allow me to relive the scent and sounds of the Ballet, the theaters of Broadway, the concert halls of my 20’s. I frequently remained in the City after work to attend a season of the American Ballet or the Alvin Ailey, often alone, but sometimes meeting my first husband for dinner and a play. Eventually, Pink Floyd at Carnegie Hall and the Rolling Stones at Madison Square Garden were signs of the changing times. Equal to these events were the many professional basketball games, hockey games, and New York Giants Football games at Yankee Stadium, as enthusiasm to live life fully drove my eager youth.

Much of this I recalled when writing my memoir, Tantra Goddess. But so many details were lost in the editing in order to get on with the story. Watching A Ballerina’s Tale this past week, a documentary about the historical success of Misty Copeland, principal dancer of the American Ballet Theater, opened up a deep passion in me. It is those lost passions or perhaps current ones that drive our creativity for living a chosen way.

I always knew I wanted to dance, to move, to soar and leap. I envied all singers and dancers on the stages of New York, but I did not envy their unbridled discipline. I also wanted the freedom to learn in the University called Life. In other words, I also needed to leave my legacy of unexplored art. That is what Tantra Yoga is to me… unexplored art. And the feminine is the Aphrodite of this art form.

Which brings me to the deeper point of this story. How many of those passions have fueled your life? In creating The Sacred Feminine Mystery School with Amrita Grace, we are igniting our shared passion for bringing women together in sacred ceremony in order to help them ignite their lost passions… clearing away anything that stands in the way. It’s time for women to rise together in inspired weavings of many colors.

We invite your participation in our free monthly global video conference, Sacred Feminine Conversations. You’ll have an opportunity to share your passion and truth in a circle of women. (Recordings will be made available to all registrants.) Our January 14 conversation already has 137 women registered! Our next date is February 11 with more to follow. 

Join us in Costa Rica November 4-11 for yoga, ceremony, Shamanic Breathwork®, and sacred sexual healing and awakening for women. Take advantage of the updated early-bird discounts now in place!  As a tribe of passionate truth-seekers, we will Rise, Soar, and More…

 

A Winter’s Tale, Caroline

Advances in Pleasure

There have been a number of times in my career as an author and an educator that I’ve shaken my natural curls in wonder, asking “what will they think of next?”.

I am a great believer in enhancement. Why shouldn’t we enhance ourselves? Women have been doing this for as long as we have lived. The endless hair appointments, manis and pedis, facials, and/or makeovers can fill a woman’s calendar… not all, but many! And all this in between work schedules, picking up the kids, grocery shopping, and some form of yoga, gym workouts, or simply a relaxing massage. We love beauty!

In a recent phone conversation with a doctor friend of mine, I was informed about the steady increase in vaginal rejuvenation. No, not the surgical kind, but the use of injectables such as Prolozone, PRP (Platelet Rich Plasma), and a procedure known as TheremiVa for women who have lost sensitivity in their G-spot, vagina, and clitoris.

I have recently been seeing my Naturapath for injections of Prolozone into a cranky arthritic knee, but I was taken completely surprise by the idea of these injections being offered in women’s health clinics across the country. My knee knows it would love to dance again, and the Prolozone (a homeopathic/oxygen technique) takes all of fifteen minutes at the office of a holistic M.D.

But in my Yoni? Now that was new beyond my imagination. However, hearing how these injections can and do give women a return to the orgasmic pleasure they had lost perked my interest and my need to know. And these fairly comfortable (I said “fairly”… everyone is different) procedures are offered from New York to Arizona to California and beyond. Check in with your local Naturapath or Med Spa!

Looking on the web I see warnings as well as inspiring articles about the use of oxygen or ozone therapy. While I am not recommending any of this, it’s my hope to inform you of what I hear and learn about.

Fortunately my vaginal and clitoral tissue are alive and well as I move through my 73rd year. But not every woman can say that. We are all so different. Our sexual partners may or may not have had the skills to keep our lady parts luscious. Surely women who have felt a deadening in their sexual responses would want to know all that may be possible for rejuvenation. But never forget your lovely hands and sensitive fingers for a daily dose of loving awakening! Daily practice squeezing your love muscles works magic.

If you would like to learn and practice your own natural rejuvenation, come join us for The Sacred Feminine Mystery School’s Sacred Sexual Healing and Awakening Retreat for women November 25-December 1, 2018, at Blue Spirit Costa Rica. We will deliver all the natural “cures,” and join in lively discussions about the alternatives. We will transmit Shakti energy to each other, which is an ancient rejuvenation “secret” women have known about for centuries.

Into the Next Phase with orgasmic tremblings… I remain your very own Tantra Goddess, Caroline

Heart Wide Open

Dear Friend of Love,
 
Since you are Divine Feminine Family, I know you are a friend of Love. At this time of year, as with any other time of year, let your “heart break wide open so that the whole world falls in.” These are a few of the lyrics of this gift of song from Danya River, the daughter of dear friends of mine, Robert and Judith Gass.
 
Songs that evoke an opening in the heart have been foundational to my own Awakening. Please allow a song such as this to also touch your heart as you remember the deepest meaning of Christmas, and the everlasting truth brought to all of us by the Christ’s message: to…
 
LOVE ONE ANOTHER!
 
As I send my love to you,
 
Caroline, Queen of Hearts

This is a sensitive concept… and an even more sensitive reality. The practice of Sexual Healing and Awakening is still not a licensed profession. It is primarily taught in Schools of Tantra Yoga, yet anyone can “do it,” or say they do it.

 

As many of you know, the Divine Feminine Institute taught and held week long Trainings with a primary focus on Sexual Healing and Awakening for the students, along with supporting subjects. We had much success with adults seeking to deepen their knowledge and experience of sexual intimacies that brought high regard and a deepening respect to one another.

Now, The Sacred Feminine Mystery School is taking groups of women to sacred sites to engage in the sacred work of Sexual Healing and Awakening along with delicious supporting embodiment practices such as dance, Shamanic Breathwork®, and ceremony.

 

This brings me to the subject of “sexual stealing” and the whole younger generation’s attitude of “hooking-up” – with little or no meaning other than to have sex without connection, intimacy, or regard for the human being – to satisfy sexual needs. Young people deserve an education at the college level if not before regarding the needs and questions from students across our country and the world.

 

There is a movement now on college campuses to educate students about conscious, loving sexuality and communication around consent in an effort to change the culture of sex for the better. For those of you with children you wish to educate beyond what they learn on the internet and porn sites, please consider donating to THE BODY OF SEX, Redefining Sex on Campus. This short, compelling video will give you more info about the campaign that is being Launched on Indiegogo with a goal of raising funds by December 16.

IMAGINE if you had been given this opportunity when you were just starting your sexual life.

I wish you a fantastic Holiday Season.

With all my love,

Caroline

PS I’m closing my Awakening Store in order to simplify my business, and I’m offering FREE DOMESTIC SHIPPING through the end of December. After that, the store goes away! Be sure to get your goodies before the end of the year.

melania-trump-sexy-picture-donald-trump-wifeWhat moves the wife of an elected President, when overnight she becomes the “First Lady” of the nation? Where and when does the wisdom and the deep nurturing of the feminine show itself in our nation’s presidential partnership? This is a question that remains unanswered. Beneath her new designer closet and the “role” she must play, where does she bathe in deeper waters? From where does she sip her deeper nourishment? I’m not sure we will get to know these answers, but I can’t help but wonder…..

Cries of Conflict

I am aware of the tremendous cries of conflict coming from so many about the outcome of this election… an election that has owned our attention in the comfort of our homes now for some time. People are challenged by their beliefs and hopes for a better future, believing in one woman or one man to provide the magic carpet that we will ride toward the end of our troubles.

The numbers of lonely or unhappy people or simply people who are a-lone and too broke to be happy is on the rise. The worry, opinions, and despair that sweeps the land  is captured in the media, yet I continue to experience my surroundings as gentle and sane. I am very blessed. Not all are as blessed as I. Perhaps that is how it is meant to be. Without contrast we would all be the same.

More Contrast

I just returned from a few days in San Francisco, inspired by a conference I chose to attend sponsored by Katusa Research where I am being mentored in the investment opportunities within the natural resource sector. That translates as making money on the riches of mother Earth, which some would frown upon… understandably so!

I won’t defend that here, but will share the obvious contrast of seeing so many homeless living in doorways and in city parks while the “haves” stroll by in expensive suits on their way to five-star restaurants. Yet the City by the Bay appeared more glorious than ever! There is balance in that contrast and it feels like everyone has chosen their lot in life.

I Saw it Coming!

I knew for several weeks that Trump was going to surprise us all. I relaxed in front of the news, knowing it would all be okay. I just don’t trust the former Secretary of State even if she is a woman. The old guard needed to fall, and if pussy-grabbing financiers are to lead our country, there is one thing I do know: With just a little education and refinement, the world of women could be blessed by powerful men in rituals of AH (Awakening & Healing) practice!!!

And so I return to my meandering… what about those first ladies and how do they R E A L L Y feel, or do they even notice their feminine essence needs a recharge? We all do… as Sacred and Divine Femmes passionately believe. Would they stand up and howl along with us?

Who me? Policial?

I rarely dip a toe into the arena of political opinion. I remain focused on how love can grow and how healing can turn the tide of unhappiness and pain into a flowing river of hope. I am not known for speaking out about my opinions, preferences, or views concerning political issues or politicians or political parties. I don’t broadcast what I think about things I don’t fully understand. Leave me out of the arguments that ignore human kindness as the prevailing solution to many issues.

I don’t recognize my country when I allow outside views to be the camera that reflects reality. I accept that my country’s soul is in conflict. I don’t recognize dishonesty in order to claim power. I don’t recognize how power makes people say or do anything in order to have more of… what? More money? More Power?

Choose Love

We each make the choice to remain and grow in partnership and loving kindness… or not. I will continue to offer my time and wisdom in Private Immersions for women and couples, in Costa Rica with the Brand New Sacred Feminine Mystery School, and places yet to be determined. Regardless of what is going on in the land of my birth, I will continue to become someone with influence.

The First Lady Queen Caroleena in me is parting the waters of conflict toward a wake of consciousness rising. Will you join me?

Blessings Be Upon You,

Xoxo Caroline

Couple With Hot Drink Relaxing By Fire

Long hours of snuggling under down comforters with my honey… pots of hot Chai steaming on the stove… the promise of many long conversations by the fire stretching out on sheepskin rugs in sexy flannels…

Gazing at the patio wet with a late fall rain, yellow and red leaves litter the grey stones from the majestic trees that are preparing for winter in our backyard. I feel into the natural state of hibernation, the inactive state, that moving into winter invites.

Bears do it… other animals and plants do it, yet the human animal tends to just keep going. I find resistance in myself to the idea of entering into a more dormant state of any kind. I admit to being someone who avoids inactivity, preferring motion as a means of constant exercise.

I like to keep moving. Moving is my way of meditating. Recently I heard my left knee calling for my attention… throbbing pain calmed by ice packs and thoughts of dreaded doctor appointments, MRIs, and worst of all, surgery! Instead, I pursue the healing arts with gusto, making more time to do my Pain Free Egoscue E-cises, upping the ante on my Green Drinks (thanks to Amrita who recently cared for me in her new home in North Carolina, and fed me THE most delicious green drinks every morning).

The relief for this knee arrived at the Naturopath’s office and an injection of ozone, or Prolozone. Brilliant!!! Immediately my energy returned and my recovered knee now supports all of my chosen activities. Whew! That was too close for comfort. Yes, I know, I’ll see the Orthopedic doc too for an MRI. I am simply too young to be knocked down by failing mechanical parts.

I admit to carrying a long-held belief system that I am my own best doctor and healer. Call it Naturopathy or Self Healing, but I make peace with hibernation so that I can listen more deeply as silence surrounds me. I don’t do Thanksgiving or Christmas family visits or dinners… I spend them hibernating! I often prefer fasting or juicing on holidays when I would normally collapse from stuffing and desserts. This being my last declared year living in “winter,” I am determined to make the most of it. Oh, by the way, does anyone want my skis, boots, helmet, and cutest Spider “on the slopes” jacket and pants, size 10? Going…. Going… Gone!

But before winter’s arrival, I made a trip to Western North Caroline (teehee, I renamed the state) to co-facilitate a magical weekend with Amrita. We raised the bar on Aphrodite with 13 amazing women! Offering the Nurturing Practice of AH, key to the Divine Feminine Institute trainings for many years, convinced us that groups for women must be reinstated. In conjunction with my move to Panama in August, 2017, we are scheduling a first-class Women’s Retreat in Costa Rica for November 2017, as the brand new Sacred Feminine Mystery School!

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Say YES to next November with us in Costa Rica, tropical magical memories to take home to your winter’s abode… and fill yourself to overflowing with Sacred Feminine Mysteries. The sacred feminine is rising and we are rising to meet her!

 

What are your hibernating aspirations for this winter? What calls to you from deep inside your berry-filled cave?

In the spirit of the Seasons, Caroline (Caroleena)

My View from the Top

Panama momentI have always loved the view from the top. As a child in Kansas, it meant the top of the big old apple tree in our backyard. In New York City during my 20’s, it meant the view from the top of the Empire State Building. In my 30’s, it was the view from the top of the Rocky Mountains in Colorado… in my 40’s and 50’s in Maui, the view of Forever as I gazed out to the never-ending Pacific Ocean of horizon and sky.

….and on and on until this became essential to my view of the world and of my life.

At the moment my view is from the top of Trump Ocean Tower in Panama City, Panama. Please don’t confuse this as my choice for our next President… the guy does build nice buildings, i.e. the one on Fifth Avenue in NYC and this 70-story hotel in the Republic of Panama overlooking Panama Bay and the Panama Canal. The 66th floor outdoor café is thrilling (especially when the lovely tropical rain falls)!

What does this have to do with the Divine Feminine and the Awakening of the Goddess… well, many things! I love to watch women… and I love to watch men watching women. It is a privilege and a study much like viewing fine art in the museums of the world. It teaches me so much about the masculine/feminine dance of awe-inspiring desire, sex appeal, and the longing to merge. I see the insatiable curiosity to touch, to reach for the scent of another, to capture a gaze… and yet there is the steady protection to withhold, to look down, to walk the other way.

Here, were I am one in a million with eyes as blue as the sky, I love to capture those gazes. They see me as a creature from another planet… a “gringo” from another land. I feel the energy to connect. I return that. And the spark is complete… I feel aroused by this ‘salsa’ energy. It’s alive as the Shakti of the Yoniverse, converging with the Universe at all times.

Panama_CityMy skin is soft as a ripe Mango. I feel reborn. It’s more than a vacation. This is a vacation with a purpose… to apply and acquire a Residency Visa from the Panamanian Government… to feel firsthand the air, the people, the sky, and the water… absorbing the elements of jungle and concrete as they meet in harmony with advancing economic sky-scraping technological reality. “Poof”… said the magic dragon. What is next?

I will be home in Nevada for another 11 months. I will move the Immersions for women and couples to a tropical hideaway once I find the perfect place for you to deepen into your own Mango skin! Stay tuned my dear ones… the magic dragon might find you next!

In the awesome spirit of adventure, Señora Caroleena